Wednesday, October 05, 2005
a different kind of battle
The Wudan / bible study crew of guys and I cancelled our regular study to go and visit Dennis at the UWMC. As hard as it was to see him at the hospital again and hearing all the cold details of his current condition, I'm thankful that we could at least spend time with him to just hang out, talk, and pray for him.
I really think it is both God's grace and a testament to Dennis' character that he's the one whose seems strongest in dealing with the situation. If any of us other guys were in his situation, I'm not sure we'd handle it so well.
Of course, maybe the hardest thing that most of us are wrestling with is why this whole situation is happening in the first place. When you think of the things that guys of our age and background are supposed be dealing with, I don't think most 20-somethings expect to be fighting something like tumors and bad health. Dennis is neither a heavy smoker or a heavy drinker, and to my knowledge has never done drugs. He doesn't eat babies or massacre helpless woodland animals, and yet, this is the painful path that has been given to him to walk.
It all makes me say "WTF" a lot more these days too.
Honestly, visiting him at the hospital brings back memories of other hospital visits, and though I was never presume to place my own issues on a pedestal above his own situation (because obviously, they're different), they're there in the back in my mind. Like David posted, it's the thorny matters of theodicy that can make it tough for anybody to cope, both the person suffering and those who care for him/her.
Sometimes the hardest enemy to fight is your own doubt.
Though it's not completely related, a quote from a book I was reading back when I was in Japan comes to mind again.
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